Finally I m in Sunderland

After 24 hours..

finally i m in sunderland now....

this is a small town,

i dun hav the opportunity yet to walk around the town,

but i like the environment here very much..

hav to spend 9 months here....

hopefully evrything will go smoothly....

looking forward for the orientation week..... =D

Last day

the very last night in malaysia..

now is 4am, but...

i can't feel any sleepiness..

juz finish packing my luggage..

it's overweight..

n i keep repeating put the things in, n again take all out...

very fruastrated...

n now i dun care anymore..

my check in luggage is now 35kg..

i hope i m lucky tmr n the officer will let me go..

i cant tell my feeling now..

juz hope everything will be ok...

good luck to me....

超级不爽！！！

这几天，不知怎么的。。

心情就蛮低沉的。。。

不知道是自己过敏，

或是怎样。。。

就觉得他们对我有负面的看法。。

是自己真的做错了？

还是他们管得太多。。

为什么我就不能有自己的自由？？

为什么我做每样事情都必须顾虑到他们？？

为什么我不能潇洒地为自己而活？？

为什么要让他们来左右我？？

为什么他们那么多管闲事？？

为什么，为什么，为什么？？？

今天开着车时，心里真的有许多怨言。。

脑海里浮现出很多很多的问号。。

同时也讨厌这样懦弱的我。。

为什么我不会为自己辩护？？

为什么我那么在意别人怎么看我？？

也许是因为我不想当别人眼中的坏孩子。。

如果我狠心一点，勇敢一点。。

我也可以像某些人一样我行我素。。

不必理会不关事的人的眼光。。

不必理会他们的闲言闲语。。

但我想我还是没办法这样做。。

现在的我还没存足那份勇气。。

我必须承认，目前的我是懦弱的。。

只能在这儿宣泄我心里的愤怒与不满。。


到底想怎样？？ 我就是很不爽啦！！！

I need more time

The day for me to depart is getting nearer n nearer..

start getting worry as my luggage is yet to pack..

it's seems like the time is always not enuf for me..

went to dental to check my teeth this afternoon..

n went to buy some needed thing after coming out from dental..

n now i m juz coming back from neway in 1U..

had a nice karaok session with my dearest cousins..

n this will be the last time to sing b4 i leave..


Uhm ya.. went for hair cut yesterday..

after keeping my hair long for abt 3 yrs..

this time i decided to change it into short hair style..

nice duh.. satisfied with that hair stylist profesionality...


There r still many things i need to do b4 i leave..

preparing, packing, gathering, etc...

will spend more time with my family in this last week time..

10 more days to go...

10 more days to go..

after 10 days, i will be leaving my lovely home, family n frens..

and go to a totally new environment...

i couldn't really imagine the life out there..

but i hope it will be a safe n smooth life...


Can't describe my mood now,

as i, myself also duno wat's in my mind for the moment...

excited? looking forward? nervous? not sure...


Start packing n preparing my luggage this few days...

i got so many things want to bring over..

n i really hope tat i can bring my whole room there..


this few days starts arrange my schedule to farewell with my dearest family n frens..

got free dinner treat by aunties, cousins, frens.......

last weekend got dinner treat by 8yi,

then bak kut teh breakfast treat by xiao yi...

then today steam boat dinner treat by mei...

n more dinner will come this week n next week..

this coming weekend got a big farewell party for me n cheng take place at 8 yi house..

then again xiao yi will treat me either japanese or korean dinner next week..

dad n mum keep bringing me out for my favourite food...

n now i keep on eating yummy food until i become fatter n fatter dy...

hmmm......

my schedule is so full this 2 weeks...

n i hav to meet up with my dearest frens also...

hopefully can gather with them b4 i leave...


10 more days...

i hope i can fully use this precious 10 days time...

good luck to me n god bless me, pls...